"God Only Cries"
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July 17, 2006
Monday
Another week. Another peek at the looming light at the end of wherever I may be going. I'm alive! Feeling recharged and refreshed, I'm writing now yet another, new chapter in my book of life.
I can see the gloomy clouds that shadowed me for quite sometime now waving goodbye. I'm sure that this farewell is never eternal, but at least I am able to emerge from such a dark long tunnel, still whole.
...
I still think of Grandfather once in a while. There are moments when I thought that he was just there at the hospital, staring out the window while waiting for me to feed him—and this brings me to near tears.
...
But as a jester always proclaims,
Kahit ano pa man ang mangyari
Tuluy-tuloy pa rin ang palabas.
Sa entablado, ako ang hari.
My sense of ownership to my life seemingly stopped for almost three years. I thank Fate, I very well feel that I'm slowly gaining momentum. I'm ready now for whatever new trials You have left on my path. I think I have been in my slowest and saddest state, and I survived it unscathed, so I believe that I have the power now to face any new obstacles.
Like fireflies at night,
I glow amidst misery.
I'll keep up the fight
'Til I reach eternity.
I will face my destiny.
...
Sharing an e-mail I received today from a friend:
Hello Alfie,
Please accept my sincerest condolences on the recent passing of your Lolo. Having been a frequent visitor to your blog I have been able to follow the emotional rollercoaster that you have been on over the past year or so.
I know that your sadness mingles with relief and excitement—what with all the possibilities and opportunities that have opened up for you. I wish you the best, and I hope still to be able to read about my favorite eLf's further adventures.
Kindest regards,
Steve
P.S.
I was listening to the radio while driving home from work, and I heard this song by a group called Diamond Rio being played. I'm not really a fan of country music, but I couldn't help but think of you and your grandpa while it was playing (particularly the 3rd stanza). The song is titled "God Only Cries."
On an icy road one night
A young man loses his life
They marked the shoulder with a cross
An' his family gathers round
On a piece of Hallowed ground
Their hearts are heavy with their loss
As the tears fall from their eyes
There's one who'll always sympathise.
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are left to carry on
An' all the angels up in Heaven
They're not grieving because they're gone
There's a smile on their faces
'Cause they're in a better place than, mmm, baby, than, oh
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are so far from home
It still makes me sad
When I think of my Granddad
I miss him each and every day
But I know the time will come
When my own grandson
Wonders why I went away
Maybe we're not meant to understand
Till we meet up in the Promised Land
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are left to carry on
And all the angels up in Heaven
They're not grieving because they're gone
There's a smile on their faces
'Cause they're in a better place than, oh, baby, than, oh
God only cries for the living'
Cause it's the living that are so far from home
Yeah, we're so far from home, mmm, mmm
As I write this entry the song plays on my media player. Thank you, Steve, for this song.
July 17, 2006
Monday
Another week. Another peek at the looming light at the end of wherever I may be going. I'm alive! Feeling recharged and refreshed, I'm writing now yet another, new chapter in my book of life.
I can see the gloomy clouds that shadowed me for quite sometime now waving goodbye. I'm sure that this farewell is never eternal, but at least I am able to emerge from such a dark long tunnel, still whole.
...
I still think of Grandfather once in a while. There are moments when I thought that he was just there at the hospital, staring out the window while waiting for me to feed him—and this brings me to near tears.
...
But as a jester always proclaims,
Kahit ano pa man ang mangyari
Tuluy-tuloy pa rin ang palabas.
Sa entablado, ako ang hari.
My sense of ownership to my life seemingly stopped for almost three years. I thank Fate, I very well feel that I'm slowly gaining momentum. I'm ready now for whatever new trials You have left on my path. I think I have been in my slowest and saddest state, and I survived it unscathed, so I believe that I have the power now to face any new obstacles.
Like fireflies at night,
I glow amidst misery.
I'll keep up the fight
'Til I reach eternity.
I will face my destiny.
...
Sharing an e-mail I received today from a friend:
Hello Alfie,
Please accept my sincerest condolences on the recent passing of your Lolo. Having been a frequent visitor to your blog I have been able to follow the emotional rollercoaster that you have been on over the past year or so.
I know that your sadness mingles with relief and excitement—what with all the possibilities and opportunities that have opened up for you. I wish you the best, and I hope still to be able to read about my favorite eLf's further adventures.
Kindest regards,
Steve
P.S.
I was listening to the radio while driving home from work, and I heard this song by a group called Diamond Rio being played. I'm not really a fan of country music, but I couldn't help but think of you and your grandpa while it was playing (particularly the 3rd stanza). The song is titled "God Only Cries."
On an icy road one night
A young man loses his life
They marked the shoulder with a cross
An' his family gathers round
On a piece of Hallowed ground
Their hearts are heavy with their loss
As the tears fall from their eyes
There's one who'll always sympathise.
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are left to carry on
An' all the angels up in Heaven
They're not grieving because they're gone
There's a smile on their faces
'Cause they're in a better place than, mmm, baby, than, oh
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are so far from home
It still makes me sad
When I think of my Granddad
I miss him each and every day
But I know the time will come
When my own grandson
Wonders why I went away
Maybe we're not meant to understand
Till we meet up in the Promised Land
God only cries for the living
'Cause it's the living that are left to carry on
And all the angels up in Heaven
They're not grieving because they're gone
There's a smile on their faces
'Cause they're in a better place than, oh, baby, than, oh
God only cries for the living'
Cause it's the living that are so far from home
Yeah, we're so far from home, mmm, mmm
As I write this entry the song plays on my media player. Thank you, Steve, for this song.
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